I am coming to terms with the fact that I will not get pregnant again, and that Ryder will grow up an only child. I am still sad about it, of course. I can still cry almost instantly if I think about it, but I am staying strong because this is God's will for us. I trust in Him. I know someday I will see the babies I was unable to carry. There are 5 of them waiting for us, and I can only imagine.
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you."