Life as it is

Oh life why must you go so fast. Before I know it I will be old and grey. Oh wait....life...slow down! We don't want that yet!

 

So October has come and gone. It was a very warm month, so fall was extended somewhat. I took Ryder to the pumpkin patch. Quay wasn't able to go with, so Steven tagged along. We did a little shopping later and went out for lunch. We ended it with a visit to Andy and Shelly's house.  It was a very fun day! I love spending time with my boys! (yes-Steven is considered one of "my boys" since he's my brother) I have a lot of boys in my life and I love them all!!

 

What a beautiful morning sunrise!!



 

Andy and Shelly had their 2nd annual Halloween party. Last year we didn't make it, but this year I went. We watched a movie and played a game...Halloween style. It was a great time with all my siblings (minus my husband who had to work).

 

We got a pumpkin carved, my boys cleaned it out and I did the face carving. So it was a team effort!  The next day was halloween. I helped out for Ryder's class party-what a great group of children. They all love to tell you interesting things! I just love kids! Ryder decided this year he wanted to be a Ghostbuster. Those are his favorite movies!  So many kids didn't know what he was-I guess they don't watch the classics. Ha! Trick or treating that evening was a chill-fest as normal. We all dressed appropriately and were still cold. But, lots of candy was given (and we still have a lot!)

 

 

 

My Halloween party attire for the 1st grade party! :) 

 

 

It's now November, and the snow has come. This was a beautiful snowfall-big flakes! I love snow-but only for a month or two. Unfortunately here in North Dakota we aren't that lucky.

 



Fall wreaths

 

So, I have been busy lately making my fall wreath.

I used a pool noodle from the Dollar Tree for the wreath itself.

I wrapped it in yarn, then made all my own flowers. They are made from old clothes or fabric remnants that I had. Some of the clothes were my grandpa's old shirts.

 

After I finished it, and my mom said she loved it, I decided to make her one as well.

For mom's I wrapped the pool noodle in fabric, and again made all my own flowers from the same fabrics. I thought it would be fitting to have some of her dad's old shirts on her wreath as well.

 

 

Then I also made one for my mother-in-law.

I wrapped this one in fabric as well and made the flowers out of fabric she picked out.

 

I was a busy lady for a week!



Sharing at:



 

 

Oh boy!!

Well, so many things have happened where do I start?

 

The big news first I guess....I am a new auntie!! My sister in law had the baby on Sept 25th. A BOY!!

He is so absolutely adorable. His name is Oakley. And he is coming to stay at my house in one month while mama and daddy are at work.

He had to stay in the hospital a little longer than normal, but he's been home for a couple weeks now and adjusting well according to his mama.

 Look at that precious face!

 I got some snuggle time in while he was in the hospital

 Proud new uncle...aka my hubby

 Ryder and his new cousin

The little mama and her new boy.

 

 

Okay-so fall has set in here in ND. Ryder made some leaf piles a couple weeks ago. It's his annual tradition to rake and jump. Good thing he did it before we had the hurricane force winds for the last 2 days!!

 

 

We had a wedding last weekend. My cousin married her sweetheart. It was a lot of fun and of course a good family photo op!

 

 

Quay bought Ryder a truck. Definitely a fixer-upper. But they have several years to get to it. Ryder loves it!!

 

 

Quay turned 34 on Tuesday of this week. He has caught up to me again. Hehe. I still feel young, so that's all that counts right?

 What's a birthday without goofy pictures?

Ain't he handsome!

 

Oh and the other big news.....I chopped off all my hair. I needed a change. If you have made it through most of my post, you maybe noticed in our family pic above. But here's one from today, didn't put on much makeup and did minimal styling, but it still looks pretty good.

 

I wish

I am still battling with the inftertility "demons". 

I can say I am past it, but I am not.

 I can put on a happy face, but inside it's eating me alive.

 I can say I won't go through IVF again, but I would.

I can say, no adoption isn't for us, but I think it could be.

 

When will this go away?  This feeling like I am incompetant as a woman because I can't have a baby, with or without medical intervention. It has always seemed like the easiest thing in the world-people have babies everyday. Until now.

 Why me? I have so much love to give, and I think my son is getting smothered with it (not that that's a bad thing).

 

why why why why why

That is what goes through my head over and over and over. I get no answer.

I see a woman carrying a baby, or a woman with 3-4-5 kids and think--why can she have so many and I can't be blessed with the "pregnant" gene.

I don't curse these women-I envy them. I wish I could be like them-fertile.

 

Then I hear or read about a women complaining about being pregnant and think-REALLY!! You have been blessed with a new life-what is wrong with you!!? Do you know how many women wish they could get pregnant and here you are complaining about it!!?

 

I pray, almost daily, that God would give us another child.

Do I feel like my prayers are unanswered?....yes, I do.

Do I feel shameful about this because I already have a beautiful son who is the best child anyone could ask for?...yes, I do.

 

Why do we always want more in life?

Why isn't what I have good enough?

Why is life so full of heartache?

why why why why...there they go again

 

I just wish, hope, pray, long, yearn for a new life to be growing inside me. Please.

Simply Sunday

Sunday is coming to a close again. It was a nice day today-the temps crept up and turned out to be a beautiful fall day. Ryder and I headed out to my parents house around 11am. We went for a walk down the road with my dad, the dog, and 3 of my brothers. We saw 3 snakes on our walk {one was dead} out sunning themselves. When we got back it was time for lunch and some FOOTBALL! There were lots of good games today, and it's always more fun to watch with more people. Quay got up and came out at about 12:30pm, so we got to spend the afternoon with him as well. 

We came home this evening to get Ryder ready for school again tomorrow. He practiced piano {he started lessons last week}, and read some books.  He got a few new books through the book order at school. One was titled, "There was an old lady that swallowed some books". As I was reading it I couldn't help but 'sing' it. Ryder was having a cow because "that's not a song mom!" Well....when I was done reading that to him I proceeded to sing the real song, "there was an old lady who swallowed a fly". He listened to me sing the whole song with delight on his face and a smile on his lips.  When I was done he says to me, "sing it again!" So I did. And he sang along.  He claims to have never heard that song, I just think it's been that long. 

I love that I can still make him look at me like I am a superhero for teaching him a new funny song. I've still got it! He is growing up so fast, I just want him to stay little so I can remain "supermom".

School pictures

I am never overly impressed with school pictures. I normally have a family member {my SIL and my brother have nice DSLR cameras} take Ryder's pics. But this year, I have my own camera, so I am thinking of heading out to our land {it's almost ours--getting closer anyway} and snapping away at Ryder. 

But, since the school does them and I want my child in the school yearbook, we get them taken and I order the smallest package so that we get a class photo as well. Yesterday was picture day in the elementary school, so before he got on the bus we did a few practice shots at home.  I hope he picked the  smile he has in the large photo here!! Ha!

He is very photogenic {I am not bias at all!} His dad is as well, I don't feel that I am.  He has a nice smile, even with missing teeth.

Refurbishing

I have done a few craft things as of late. My sister-in-law {who is expecting a baby within the next few weeks} had this mirror that she wanted in the baby's room. So I came up with an idea and she let me run with it.


Here is the mirror before. It once had a shelf on it where the light colored narrow piece of wood is now. My SIL suggested just cutting that bottom half off but I had bigger ideas!! I had my hubby add this piece and he sanded it all down nice and smooth.

Here is the AFTER!  Her nursery is grey with teal accents. So I primed and painted this, and cut out the vinyl with my Silhouette Cameo for the saying. It turned out so cute!

The next project I did was a fun gift for the new parents. She had two showers {of course I was invited to both}, so for one she got a baby gift, for the other a parent gift. I found the idea on pinterest and ran with it. It was so fun to find all the stuff for it, and I made the little sign in Publisher and tied it on with ribbon.

The "sanitize before snuggles" was also a pinterest idea. I just bought a hand sanitizer, peeled off the label {and used a ton of goo-gone to get the sticky off!}, then cut out the words with my Cameo.

Here are the goodies that this Birth Day Comfort Kit includes: The bag is from Mary Kay that I have had for awhile, it's normally pink on the outside, so I turned it inside out. It came with the neck pillow {perfect for this project!}. On the inside~magazine, cute socks for mom in the hospital, hand sanitizer, chap stick, mouthwash, soft tissues, wet ones, lotion, tic tacs, small notebook and pen, water with small flavor pack, bobby pins and hair rubber band, m&m's, skinny cow candy bars.

You could put any kind of snacks in there. I just chose something I knew they would like.  I hope they enjoy it on the big day! I know I would!

Simply Sunday

So it's once again Sunday, one of my favorite days of the week. It's a relaxing day. Day for family. I sit here typing in a quiet house. My hubby is at work, the boy is at the lake with his grandparents. There is a slight breeze outside and a sprinkle or two of rain. What a beautiful day!! A day of reflection, a day of hope for the future.

A couple weeks ago we took the hunting dog out for a little exercise (we got some as well!). He was tired out by the end of our jaunt, and the heat was setting in for the day, so we stopped in the stubble field and Ryder got his first taste at shooting a gun. Quay gave him a quick lesson on gun safety and how to aim. We set up a beer can about 20 yards out and the little stinker hit it his first shot!! I even got in on the action a little bit.

Looking down the road toward my parents farm.

We have had frost several nights now, so last week we picked all of our garden produce. I canned some tomatoes a few days ago for stews and cooking later. Much more needs to be done yet though.

 

 

 

Linking up with: