Ball of nerves

That's me-I tried to keep myself occupied today with doing some simple projects, but I didn't get far.  I got winded very quickly and started getting cramps so I quit. Sat in my green lazy-boy and spent some time on Pinterest.

Tomorrow is a big deciding factor on the rest of our lives.  We go in for our first blood test and hope to hear high numbers with the phone call. If not-I will be sad-but I know there is nothing I can do about it. God has a plan for me and I must follow it-even if I feel it is unfair.  I have one perfect little boy that I absolutely adore!  Last night he asked me, "so do you think there is a baby in there?", pointing to my stomach. I reply with a "I don't know?"  He walks away saying, "I sure hope there is and I don't care if it's a brother or a sister!"

I sure hope he's right-and I don't care if it's a brother or a sister either. I don't care if this little embryo split into 2--I just want a new bundle of joy to love and hold. I want my son to grow up with a sibling that he can love, fight with, grow up with, be there for.

Dear God,  I pray for a blessing, a miracle.

-me

A little bit of this....

Yesterday was just one of those days. We accomplished some, but not really much of anything.  Quay finally got his sled trailer out of the front yard, only to bring the car trailer home and park it in it's place.  We got 3/4 of the pumpkins loaded in the yard cart, now to figure out what to do with them. I am thinking of taking what I want and making a for sale sign for the rest out by the highway. We have way too many.  It was a mascara only type day-and I am loving Mary Kay's new Love Lash Mascara. It really makes your lashes longer and fuller.

We had our first parent-teacher conferences with Mrs. Kaylor yesterday afternoon. She had nothing but good to say about our boy.  {insert pride here}  He is average to above-average in all his subjects. She has him in the advanced reading class, which surprises me-but I knew I had a smart kid.  There are just a few things he needs to work on-a few letters and the number 9.  She said he was the only kid in the class to know what the letter 'Q' was (thanks to his dad's name--Quay).  He has been the only child in the classroom not to lose his green discipline card all school year!! Wow! She commented on how organized he is, how much of a perfectionist he is, and how large his vocabulary is.  I am just so proud of him. And to think--he didn't even go to pre-school. Hahaha!!

Last night after Quay went to work, Ryder and I were outside. The wind had died down and it was just absolutely lovely out.  Ryder was playing in the leaves, so I decided to snap a few pictures.  He just LOVES leaves.  Oh and the dogs had to wrestle with him too. (No--Roo isn't biting him even though it does look like it)

A favorite fall snack-dry roasted peanuts and candy corn--Mmmm mmmm good!! Tastes like a salted nut roll.

Five Things Thursday-Traveling

I realize it's Friday already-but I will join this linky party anyway.  The 5 Days 5 Ways blog has invited us to post about traveling-well I seem to know a little about that this year, since we have done our fair share of it (for us anyway).

Here is a Hawaiin sunset from a beach in Maui. My husband and I traveled to Oahu and Maui in February in celebration of our 10 year anniversary. Most spectacular place ever!!  I can't wait to go back.

This is in Las Vegas in April--we traveled here for my sister-in-law's wedding. It was a fun family vacation!

This was our most "traveled" to place this summer-our sailboat, "Lil' Slippery", which resides on Lake Sakakawea about 20 minutes from where we live. We had a lot of fun times on it and some not so fun but memorable times. :)

This is in the North Dakota badlands near Medora, ND.  We try to go here every couple of years, it's just a couple hour drive but the scenery is just gorgeous.  (excuse my son-he couldn't stand the bright sun-haha!)

This was taken at my parents farm. It's only a 10 minute drive from my house, but it's one of my favorite places to be because it's where my family is!  I spend a lot of time there in the summer months.

Windy

It was a good day to be on bedrest today-because the wind is a BLOWING!  I have done a few more productive things today-like pay bills, held the couch down,  helped Quay make spaghetti sauce for supper.  That's about it. I guess I didn't do much. Oh well.  I just hate this wait. Only one more week.  I have found a new show that I really like-The Doctors. I am learning all kinds of stuff! Ha!

The Wait

Here we are-on the dreaded 2ww. That is forum language for two week wait.  I don't have to wait quite 2 weeks-only 1 1/2 but still dreadfully long to find out what your future will hold for the next...oh --say...rest of your life!  We went to the clinic yesterday morning, arrived in an early fashion. The nurse took us back within 5 minutes, we got our post-transfer instructions--48 hrs bedrest, and lots of other "no-no's" until after my blood tests, Dr. C came in and talked to us. He informed us that only one of our embryos made the thaw, but the other one had grown from 10 cells to 14 cells that morning, so we had a Grade 2- 14 cell embryo just waiting for his/her new home!!  They took us into the transfer room and my bladder was actually doing okay being quite full.  Bob the U/S tech checked my bladder and I was cleared for take off.  It only took about 10 more minutes and I had that little embryo nestled up in there.  I laid in the transfer room for 20 minutes flat on my back just letting the little guy get real comfy, hoping he/she wants to make that their home for the next 9 months. :)  Our nurse came back in and said it was time to go home and rest.

So here I am--resting. Quite bored actually.  I have run out of things to do. The tv is off, the computer has been searched and searched some more. My husband is outside getting projects done before it gets cold. My son is in school (only 1 more hour for today!!).   One more day then I can do some not so hard things. I plan on taking it easy until next week. My blood tests are scheduled for Oct. 12 and the 14th.  They cannot come soon enough.  I have our embryo-baby picture on the fridge. Hoping to replace it soon with an u/s picture.

Busy week

It was a very busy week to end September.  As I predicted Quay didn't make it home to go to Fargo for our appointment, so my Dad tagged along with me.  We left after Ryder's dentist appointment, in which my little man got a shiny silver tooth. Oy!  Wednesday morning was my appointment and I got wonderful news!! No more U/S appointments-we scheduled my transfer day!! Hooray!  So that meant that Thursday I got to start taking more pills and the dreaded progesterone in oil shots.  (I had to make myself a colorful chart so I know when I take all my pills.) So far they have been quite painful (the shots that is), just as expected.  Friday I attend the Norsk Hostfest with my parents. We saw some great cover bands of Abba and The Beatles. That evening we went to The Gaithers. WONDERFUL! I have been to a couple of their concerts now and they are just such an uplifting experience.  Saturday proved to be a lazy day for me.  Ryder and I picked our pumpkins out of the garden, only to realize that it was hot outside! I headed back to the house and took a nap while Ryder watched Toy Story 3.

Today we are headed to Fargo again.  Our embryo transfer is Monday morning at 11am. I am starting to get a little freaked out, but I know it's all in God's hands. I can't control what happens in the next week. I just pray for 1 or 2 sticky little babies! I want high numbers next week on that labwork.

I woke up this morning and looked out the window to an awesome sight!  The sun was rising and peeking through the clouds. It was like God was showing me how beautiful he makes things and that I shouldn't worry. That's what I am going on anyway! :)   So I went out and snapped a picture. If you are reading this blog, I would appreciate a prayer for my family-that it may expand in the next 9 months.

Fall Floral Pumpkins

So today I was feeling a little crafty and I needed to use the supplies I bought a couple weeks ago.  I bought some foam pumpkins, a few bunches of artificial fall flowers, and some ribbon (all from Michael's craft store).  I knew the flowers would be way too many for just one arrangement so I did buy 2 pumpkins and I am giving one to my sister-in-law.  I hope she likes it!  These were SO easy to make. I didn't realize the pumpkins were foam all the way through-so I thought I was going to have to cut the top off and put floral foam inside-but when I stuck my knife in I realized what they were.  So-all I had to do was poke in the stems-and voila-a beautiful arrangement.  I  made the bows and these both took me about 45 minutes to make. So simple.

Now I have to decide which one I want to keep and which one I am going to give away. I think I will let Ryder decide. :)